Just prompted to post up about my feelings right now.

I strongly agree that girls should not treat and consider boyfriends as their first priority. Know why? Because sometimes boys they just don't deserve for us to knee down ourselves and treat them like kings. Of course they would want us to do so, especially the authoritative type. Nonetheless, what have they done and contributed into thy relationship? Before you attempt to sacrifice all of you for someone whom you think he is the king/dictator or whatever you feel you are willing to raise your chin upon to, do think twice. Make sure he would sacrifice all of him just for you, then vice versa. If he is reluctant to do so, do not ever ever give him a shit. We are not living life like the 40's girls used to do. (Washing their stinky socks, big bear hug when they coming back from work, cook a full table of delicacies just to hold their appetite) Oh well, why am I talking these shits? Neither I know tho, I just type whatever according to what reverberating across my mind. We doll up, trynna be the prettiest or sexiest in order to grab their attention. In our innocent mind, we will always think that if we dress up nicely, they would not glance at another girls/milf/muscular guys (well, my man he loves muscular guys) Bisexual maybe? Lol!

Girls, do doll up for your sake, pretty will bring abundance of luck for you. Do not ever ever paint your whole face like Nippon paint/Geisha or whatever ghouls just to halt your man's pace just to have a look on you. Dress up, apply plenty skin care products, and make up like Audrey Hepburn for your own sake. True beauty comes from inner side of ourselves. Despite, make ups are fairly necessary since we ain't born flawless. Even Marilyn Monroe applied lotsa make ups on her face. 'Keep making me laugh, let's go get high, the road is long we carry on try to have fun in the meantime'. Say to him, analyse his reaction thus ask him what's the fun part he desires for. Sex? Uh uh. You have found the wrong guy. An enthusiastic lover will definitely hold your hands, playing with your fingers and looking into your eyes. In contrary, fancy dandy guys might return you with his crooked smile, and gives you really cold shoulder and you eventually will know how much you mean for this guy.

I used to own a prima-donna life. I obtained what I asked for. Nevertheless it was all about money. Hereby I confess, a materialistic and price tag girl I used to be. Well, as what I've written on previous blog post, we should not linger in our past as life goes and on. That was my past. A horrible, terrible girl as you can imagine. I dictated all over him. He sacrificed everything even his soul for me. I could tell he lived live soulless, like a walking dead. It was my fault, I should not control all over him and let him decay alone. I hope he moves on and may Lord grants him with a better girl than me, he deserves that, more than I. Regrets, griefs, and sorrows won't halt back the past. Move on Shirley. You are entering second stage of life now. You shan't put love as your first priority like why you have told others. You gave love advices but somehow you seemed pathetic than others, seeing that you can't manage your relationship well.

Digression spotted. This seems to be a self reflective diary for myself. Lol. Being in love forever is a myth, for me. Until here today.

Shirley